You sleep on your side,

I sleep on mine.

No more does our hearts

Intertwine.

I lay on my side,

You lay on yours,

Laughing and loving,

Now seem like chores.

Laughing and smiling

Has turned to

Screaming and crying.

Is it still living,

Or is our love really dying?

I sit on our bed,

Watching you pack your things

Weeping for out precious love,

For it has broken its wings.

You finally leave,

Without a sound

I run down the stairs to catch you

Taking them in a single bound.

The door stands open

From where youve left

Your closet space,

Now just emptiness.

And you are gone,

Vanished without a trace

The cold wind blows

As the tears and rain

Run down my face.

My mind races

Wondering what I should do

Since now I cant live

Because out love is through.

I go upstairs

Without a question,

Open the dresser drawer

And draw out my weapon.

Its cold and real,

Its now or never

I think as I touch

The cold steel

I count the reasons,

I love you,

As I load each round.

Then close it,

With a small clicking sound.

I stare at it

For what seems like hours

Pondering what to do.

Thoughts fly through my head,

And I finally choose.

I pull off my robe,

As the cold metal scrapes my teeth

Reality hits me

Do you recognize whats underneath?

The wedding gown we bought

Because we had planned

Out our future,

Or so I thought.

My mind fills with wonder,

At how warm the trigger

Feels on my finger.

I squeeze it just a little

And the world goes black.

Then Im floating up,

With an angel on my back.

I see Saint Peter,

Passing judgment on people here.

He looks at me and shakes his head,

His decision about me is very clear.

The angel looks down at me,

And smiles sadly,

But instead of the face I saw before,

I now see yours!

I try to talk to you,

As you fly me to Hell,

But your not listening to me,

Then I hear the sound of a bell.

Its the church where my funeral is,

And I can see cars lined up for a mile,

I didnt know that many people cared,

And I smile.

I see you,

Sitting there, on the steps, crying,

My heart aches because you are unhappy,

Im sorry for dying.

I look at the angel once again,

But instead of the beautiful one,

That was there before,

I see a demon,

Evil to the core.

He grins his evil grin

And points his grotesque finger down,

Then drops me,

Without a single sound.

As Im falling towards the ground,

I scream your name,

And grab for your forgiveness

I love you so much

How could I do this?

Im almost to the ground now,

Im sobbing,

Hoping you can still love me,

Somehow.

I hit the ground,

And jump up in bed,

Tears running down my face,

A cold sweat on my head.

I sit and cry,

Feeling alone,

But then I feel a hand on my cheek,

I turn around,

And start to weep. 

You are still by my side,

And you hold me close,

As I tell you the story,

Of the day I died.

You look at me,

With love in your eyes,

You say in amazement,

You love me enough to have died?

And I reply simply,